something to think about:
the whys… why we aim for something must be deep and meaningful otherwise we sabotage ourselves.
why we train must have personal meaning
why we eat what we do relates to many many ideas that we have about our health and wellbeing and how important it is to put ourselves FIRST
who we are based on who we strive to be
most of us are afraid to be seen yet do everything we can to be seen… its a mad conflict but most of us actually sabotage being our desired weight and at our prime performance because what then… we are exposed
what does 11 stone represent? if you are NOT 11 stone dead what does this mean? is this your true goal? to be 11 stone dead? why is this more important than other ‘things’
what about eating to feel healthy, to be strong and powerful on the bike, to be ache free and recover well. to be doing something that nurtures and respects your body rather than pummels it to a defined power watt, or weight pound…
when goals mean something you will stick to them and avoid a never ending diet that ruins our self worth… replace diet with eating for nourishment, vitality and performance.
your goals must be for you, no one else, to achieve and be something that feels good and not to prove something.
our weight is often in so many ways related to more; emotions, fear, self love when we dont know another way (that pizza felt great after a shitty day didnt it until one hour later or the next weigh in), stress management… when you start to value yourself, your hard work and all that you achieve in the day you start to want to eat well to be well, to feel well and to perform well… when these are the goals the weight on the scales naturally goes to the second tier goal of a desired weight.
ie focus on the steps and the goals happen… same as in your training.
have a think, avoid being too hard on yourself… and enjoy the journey for all that we learn about ourselves.
then you catch the emotional eating, the self sabotage, the desire to show up based on what others think and not founded in what you choose… yep… some touchy feely emotional stuff in there to chew on
you are doing great… this is a nudge to everyone that our weight is NOT our self worth nor our most important performance indicator and our appetite mechanism is emotions and need for sustenance and not calories and grams
sorry for the weirdo talk… but our weight and food choices as much as our training success and performance starts in our heads… sort the head out first…